right now i just want to shrink to the size of an ant and crawl all the way into the middle of my brain, that way i can see the synapses jumping along myelin sheiths on each neuron and the little ion channels opening and closing and understand the way my ideas are created. then i could really know how i think and where all the ideas i lose go and where the ones that make it into the world go. i really just want to be inside a brain for the rest of my life.